moving has been really hard for me. moving away from all of my family is hard. and when me and him fight it’s even harder. because i don’t have a single friend that i can just vent to about what’s going on. and he has all these guy friends.. i just don’t think he understands that it is just me and him out here, and when we fight like this.. it’s really hard for me. i have been thinking about my dad a lot lately, and i wonder what he would have said about me moving to california with a boy. i would have loved for him to meet him.. but can’t always have what we want huh..? life just isn’t fair sometimes. the only place i can really escape and get all my feelings out is in writing. i like to write.. i am actually thinking about making a autobiography about my life. maybe jsut to have it all down on paper. but i don’t know. i miss my family a lot, and i mean i love my boyfriend so much, he spoils me rotten. but when we get into little fights.. i just feel like its always my fault.. and i a m always the one to blame for every arguement that we get into.. it’s like he never does anything wrong.. and i mean it might seem a little shallow.. but he is just too sensitive sometimes.. but like he would say.. it is just my “perception.” my way or the highway.. which is not true at all. i am a very understanding person in many areas. and i am open to a lot. i am willing to change myself to become a better person for him.. things are just hard right now.. and i just felt like writing because he is out on the couch and i was sitting in the room alone, and when i am alone in situations like this.. my mind likes to wander to a lot of places and a lot of things that i don’t really like to think about. anyways, everyone have a good night.<3 thanks for reading my vent session..